Medium’s Meander
Earlier today I wrote out loud to myself sharing it with all of you.
Time has passed and as usual, I have had time to think of things I may have overlooked.
One of the biggest areas I side skirted was our fatigue, the world has worn us a little.
Frayed our edges a bit, and that is ok, I consider it evidence we are still human.
As much as I try to convince myself otherwise, the instability of the world changes me. Gives me a reason to look for things to blame my fear and frustration on.
Stepping back for a minute I see how easily I befall into that situation.
I have felt this way before, self-induced I might add, during a marathon race at mile twenty-one. What I wrote earlier stands, but its impact is lower than earlier.
We both know I will continue to write, I merely have to decide what and where. The turmoil earlier, some of its self-pity, and some of its reality in my inability to change with the platform.
Hopefully, things will improve, but the oversight, I am free to do as I choose.
Additionally, Medium does have much to be grateful for, so I will take a deep breath and see what happens.
In retrospect, I guess I was mostly voicing my concern about not writing towards my goal. Now in hindsight, I have to ask, who’s fault is that!
I realize that has little to do with those of you behind the paywall. I understand that does little to lessen the sting of disappearing views.
Medium, like all things in life, it will change.
Only I can decide if I care to change with it.
